I asked my friend Steve, a classmate, if he's been experiencing violent mood swings. Perhaps he wasn't the best law student to ask, given his email address is "mellow_guy". I started wondering if perhaps I was the anomaly. Was I the only one on a roller-coaster of both extreme joys and despairs? However, he didn't disappoint. He assured me that, yes, he too does go through highs and lows. Though he tempered it with, "but maybe not as extreme as you" or something to that effect.

So today was a rather low day - my workload grows, while the time runs out.

However, I did recognize my need to repent of my complaining and whining. It's so easy to just gripe about how bad it is and how I'm just barely "hanging in". I note the stark contrast of Paul (the apostle)'s encouragement to the philippian church to "rejoice always! i will say it again, rejoice! let your gentleness be evident to all. the Lord is near. do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. and the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" with my self-absorbed, woe-is-me mentality. i'm not up for any martyr awards, that's for sure.

The Lord is near! I need to give up the anxiety, pray, be thankful, and trust the Lord's peace will guard my heart and mind (which is so prone to wander and idolize myself and my accomplishments) in Christ.