So it's probably some subconscious fear. I've been dreaming a particular dream several times in the last few months. I dreamt it again last night. The dream is basically a variation of the same theme:

I'm walking into a large room or outdoor event, and I realize that a wedding ceremony is about to take place. I'm dressed in casual street clothes, and the guests - wearing nice apparel appropriate for a wedding - are slowly trickling in. The fact that I'm under-dressed for the event is rather embarassing, but it's far more horrifying when it dawns on me that it is MY wedding ceremony! No one seems to notice me, but I begin to race around - where is my dress? Where are the attendants? What's the program for the ceremony?

Then the sinking feeling settles in the bottom of my stomach. I don't have a dress, I don't know where my attendants are, and we don't have a program for the ceremony. How did all the months go by and the big day just suddenly arrive without warning - and nothing was ready? What a terrible, terrible shame that one of the most important events in my life, with all these guests taking the trouble to plan for it and come for it... and everyone (including myself) would be sorely disappointed. "How did it come to this?!?!" I cry.

At about this point in the dream, I would wake up and discover, to my great relief, that it was just a dream. Whew... I still have, what, 8 months to go? No worries, that's cake.

And no, it's not a coincidence that I made an appointment to go to a dress shop for my first appointment. Wouldn't it be nice to find the right one immediately, and thereafter feel secure knowing that, if all else fails, at least I'd look good in the midst of the chaos?